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Saturday, November 29, 2008 @9:56 PM

what if I'm not so crazy
what if you're the one who's wrong not me

- generation, simple plan


Friday, November 28, 2008 @10:29 AM


Tuesday, November 11, 2008 @12:00 AM


I am


Day 1

I am high from finishing Bahasa Melayu!
I can not tell you how much I am grateful to not have to agonize over

kesinambungan isi
ialah or adalah
-kan or -i
tepuk dada tanyalah selera
marcapada yang penuh dengan kejahatan ini




Day 2

No more Sejarah!

Now that it is safely over, I can say that
I am grateful for the chance to have learnt about the formation of Malaysia and its challenges, the democratic system in our country, the dasar-dasar kerajaan, the symbols of our nation, the World Wars, the Renaissance. A small part of the evolution of our country and the world around it.

Those who forget the past are condemned to repeat it, after all. Thank you George Santayana.
(Did you know you're famous in Malaysia? Who are you anyway?)


I wrote about Stars.
Yes, the essay has Twinkle Twinkle Little Star in it.

This is how it ended:
What are stars but people who shine? People who brighten our lives every single day?
Ten-year-old Hannah Lee had found her stars.

One of our essay questions was My Perfect Future Husband/Wife!

My thoughts:
2. Should I write it just for laughs?
3. No. The teacher will either burst into laughter, think we're too naive, or be bitter and angry. None of which are reactions I am aiming for.
4. Perfect...?

Oh! Up for auction, Jason's Sejarah notes! In files with cows! pretty cows! and bears on them.
Also, my Sejarah notes. =) Which I used instead of my textbook.
(Note: Ajaran sesat, future SPM takers. Read your holy Sejarah textbooks!)


Day 3


Haha the invigilators are funny! I think the good thing about being in a class room is that we get to know the teachers better and they are just ordinary teachers who deal with students every day.

I have gotten used to feeling isolated because everyone is so far away from my table! I hate not being able to see other people because I get boreddd. Usually I can see everyone from my vantage point. sigh.

Functioning at this high intensity for SPM is tiring. and stressful. And it's not even that intense yet! I still draw DNA and trace hearts and chat with teachers! But it will get worse as the sciences and the chinese and the english lit come along and I dreaddd.

Chinese. =( I resolve to work harder at this subject. There is after all, one shot at it and that's it. I don't want to receive what I expect in March and whine about the system when I haven't tried hard enough. Because no matter what Yee Wei and optimistic chinese teachers say, it would be a disgrace to the exam marking system if I got A1 over other more deserving people out there. But I will try.


Day 4

Add Math & Moral

I am

1. insecure about my handwriting.
2. happy that I was not forced to write anything complimentary about ISA.
3. secretly in love with add math beyond all other subjects.
4. strangely experiencing insomnia.
5. OMG about yee wei's writing.
6. scared about chinese in general.
7. wondering if taking english literature will be worth it.
8. sad that I cannot draw.
9. suddenly amused about the crane I spotted just now.
10. jealous of jason's handwriting.
11. eating grapes.
12. procrastinating. sigh.


Day 5


BM cikgu came over to declare my chinese essay a surat cinta. Chemistry cikgu came over to conclude that chinese is susah sangat. Haha.

I wonder what they would do if I brought in a Rubik's cube? =/


Day 6 & 7

Biology & Physics

I heart Physics but I found it the hardest of the lot. Probably due to the lack of sleep. I spent half the night reading Twilight. Sigh you see this is why I have self-discipline problems. My only lasting impression of Biology was that it was like Sejarah - only that tiny bit of the very thick Explorasi book came out. Damn not worth it.

Let me tell you why I hate - okay really dislike - Chemistry. It requires suspension of disbelief. It requires me to accept without question that copper(II) ions are blue and carbonate salts when heated release carbon dioxide. It doesn't tell me why. And that is my problem with chemistry. It's like asking why the sky is blue and why your name is ethan.

I like Physics though. It explains things. I am indifferent to Biology. I find it mind-numbingly boring.

But come to think of it not having to know why is my problem with the whole malaysian education system. Two chinese words which say everything : 虚伪


Day 8

Chinese & Literature in English

I know Jason seems to have this misguided belief that Chinese will come and murder us in our collective sleep but I am truly satisfied with the effort I have put in and whatever comes next March, I know I would not have done much differently. Which means: It's not my fault. Yay.

Yes, I took Literature in English. But even during the first half of the day when my wonderful friends were laughing at me for doing the extra subject, I had no regrets. I may not have enjoyed every second of it; may not even have liked the novel, but hey - now I have vague ideas of what made Shakespeare great; how poetry has millions of surfaces; how short stories actually say something beyond the happy endings.


Day 9

English in Science and Technology

EST does not count. We hung around chatting, listening to a briefing on Melacca and went to watch James Bond.


Day 10



It was actually quite difficult, the paper. Whatever. SPM TAMAT!

- the end -
of secondary school life


the end


Sunday, November 9, 2008 @11:47 PM

Have you ever seen a blind man trying to cross the road?

... I haven't.

How to 塑造爱心社会 like that? =(


Saturday, November 8, 2008 @1:20 PM

Today someone close to my heart is lying in a hospital bed and it kills me how the pain has stolen away her spirit.

I remember a few days after her heart attack my brother and I entered the ICU to visit her and she could still smile and tell us to go home.

I hope that as she recieves the best and the most we can give her she will be more comfortable, more hopeful.

I pray for my grandmother - a strong woman, a good person.

I am

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Friday, November 7, 2008 @1:50 AM


A week ago, I came to this for comfort when I cried. Tried to pretend it was meant for me.

Thank you, Trevor Romain.

Trevor Romain is a 'Doctor of Mischief'. He volunteers with children suffering from cancer.

I truly believe the artist is one of the most inspirational people I know of. He is inherently good. He spreads happiness. He brings joy.

And he tells the most amazing, hopeful, inspiring stories on his blog. Do visit.

Start HERE.


Thursday, November 6, 2008 @7:42 AM

I demand that Jason is held to his offer. =)

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Tuesday, November 4, 2008 @11:33 PM

Obama: The Final Rally

Barack Hussein Obama is the 44th President of the United States of America

and the dream lives on.

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Sunday, November 2, 2008 @3:34 AM

Dear Senator Barack Obama:

You are an inspiration.

You took Yes We Can and made them words people can believe in.

I really really really want you to win.

(are you ever scared?)


I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

I have a dream today!

- Martin Luther King, Jr.

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