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Sunday, August 31, 2008 @12:00 AM

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: 'We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal.'

- 'I Have A Dream', Martin Luther King, Jr.

happy merdeka malaysia

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Saturday, August 30, 2008 @11:20 PM


After 10672 tries

The crew have made it out with the booty.

Ju Vern is very proud.

and a bottle of rum!


@2:15 AM

I don't ever want to take a photo of a malay, a chinese and an indian holding hands and smiling into the camera, then use that as proof that there is no such thing as racial tension. It's demeaning, it's an insult to your intelligence and mine, and frankly, it makes me want to scream.

how. shallow. can you get.

I am tired of writing essays which go like this: if we do this, that and everything else, then we can achieve Vision 2020 and be cemerlang, gemilang dan terbilang (because there are no problems that cannot be fixed by a campaign and stringent enforcement of rules and most of all, moral and religious studies!)

I can't stand writing essays I have no moral investment in; I can't stand writing essays I don't believe in. There are only so many times I can write happy idealistic paragraphs on the state of my country when every single day I worry about everything that is wrong today and wonder why our leaders can't seem to think before they talk.

There is only so much I can write before I stare at the paper in frustration because the words ring false, because the words are so silly and weak in the face of the world today where we have real problems of racial segregation, safety issues and political upheaval. Injustice and oppression.

I don't know how to get rid of all this moral uprightness and personal perspective
how to write A1 BM opinion essays again
can't remember how to write without thinking

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Thursday, August 28, 2008 @1:22 AM

I want to colour.

I want to paint.

I want to create.


Wednesday, August 27, 2008 @5:35 PM

Permatang Pauh By-Election
Pakatan Rakyat's Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim: 31195
Barisan Nasional's Datuk Arif Shah Omar Shah: 15524

Majority of 15671 votes. Nice number. =)
Nothing else to say.

If there is one person I admire in this whole political mess Malaysia is in, it is Datuk Seri Dr. Wan Azizah. I cannot imagine the sufferings she has been through and she has been the epitome of strength and courage in the face of adversity and injustice. She has stood firm as a political leader and a member of parliment, but also as a wife and as a mother. She is has been a doctor, a volunteer worker, a first lady in waiting, an opposition leader. And now, I think, she is the most deserving to savour the victory of Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim and Pakatan Rakyat. Finally, the sweet fruits of success after the sweat, blood and tears. Finally the chance to step backwards and let her husband be the politician.

Datuk Seri Wan Azizah would be person I trust to ensure Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim does not fall by the wayside in his quest for competency, accountability and transparency in our country. I believe she will be his rock as well as his moral compass in a path to a better Malaysia. Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim is a better man with her by his side and Malaysia a better country with her striving towards a future free of corruption and injustice, a future where ketuanan rakyat is in the heart and soul of a true Malaysian.


Tuesday, August 26, 2008 @5:54 PM

How to Cheat Using a Coke Bottle
(if you get caught, you so didn't learn it from me!)

sigh. kids these days.

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Sunday, August 24, 2008 @11:27 PM

The Bejing Olympics 2008 have concluded!

What a rush.

Michael Phelps and Usain Bolt need no introduction. They are the ones getting people excited; making headlines and making the Olympics into a spectacle. I watched Michael Phelps win by 0.01 seconds; I watched Usain Bolt win effortlessly: this is style.

Roger Federer and Lin Dan. Top class athletes at the top of their games. I wonder how it feels to know you are the best in the world?

I am not sure what is happening between Russia and Georgia, but here are two athletes upholding the Olympic message of peace and respect. Paderina Natalia of Russia and Nino Salukvadeze of Georgia share the podium in the air pistol event, a day after the Georgia Olympic team considered pulling out due to conflict between Georgia and Russia. Why wage war when you can do what these two did: look beyond and rise above?

German weightlifter Matthias Steiner with his gold medal and a picture of his late wife Susann. He did it for her - he made her a promise that he would continue the Olympic dream and - here he is. He wept on that podium. The world wept with him.

Natalie du Toit swam 10km in open water and created history as the first amputee to qualify for the Olympics. She did so entirely on merit, which means she is among the top in the world of marathon swimmers. Even without one leg. What can you do but salute her tenacity?

Lee Chong Wei! National top badminton player, torch bearer and Olympic silver medallist. Soon to be a Datuk but really should stay away from politics as he looked very, very lost sitting in on a ceramah. Malaysian hero.

I'm sure there are a thousand other stories of Olympic spirit and the joy of it is that there will be many many more as we look ahead to

London Olympics 2012!


Do you think other people know where Malaysia is?
That piece of land above Singapore!
Wait. Isn't that Bangkok?

(paraphrased from Jason and Kevin haha)

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Friday, August 22, 2008 @1:20 AM


make your wish

(I wish for us all to choose what is right
instead of what is easy.)

I also wish for courage.


Thursday, August 21, 2008 @12:29 AM

Yay! This is my blog's fifth month anniversary!

Go give me a hug!
Look that way.

Click the link.


I <3 You!

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008 @8:08 PM


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Tuesday, August 19, 2008 @11:44 PM

- I finished annoying the button HAHA -
(or just don't press it)


Monday, August 18, 2008 @3:13 PM


she looks so wise

Me, I want a dog. Jason's the cat guy. He likes Garfield.

But I am grateful to the kittens for adopting our garden as their personal playground. They help break the monotony for my grandmother, who can't do much but sit all day. I imagine it must be so painful: the spirit is willing but the body weak. So I am grateful to the kittens, who prove beauty and life still prance around every day. I hope they are colour and joy to weary eyes.


Sunday, August 17, 2008 @10:03 PM

Olympics Badminton Men's Singles Gold Medal Match
Lin Dan bt. Lee Chong Wei
21-12, 21-8


I hate to think how he feels.
I hope he looks at that silver medal and is glad.
because he is still Malaysia's hero.

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@6:37 PM

Teacher's Day 2008
(because I randomly discovered funny photos)

mourning the death of my rubik's cube

sylvester with the crown we made


cake because 5Sc1 rocks that way

future terrorist



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Saturday, August 16, 2008 @2:23 PM

I am wondering:
what is the indeterminable step between
and greatness?


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Friday, August 15, 2008 @11:12 PM

of fate

of hope

(no, I don't know whether I'm going.
no, I don't know if I want to.)
no. I'm not going to tell you why.

photo credit: www.abeautifulrevolution.com

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@5:01 PM

I rode



Monday, August 11, 2008 @9:21 PM

Bar Council Open Forum on Conversion to Islam Stopped by Demonstrators 09.08.08

we are walking this rocky, winding, dangerous road which we know will lead us to a better place. as if it weren't enough of a struggle, suddenly a group of people from the other beautiful, well-laid, wide open road decide to set up a road block on our god-forsaken road.

they shout and scream and call us names: why are you on this road? they yell. our road is better and it is the road we have always walked. it is the road we must always walk! they don't seem to realise that their road leads to the end of the world, with all its pain and its horror and hate.

they just stand in the middle of our road, making a lot of noise. why are you making life difficult? they question. just accept our road as it is. don't change roads after 50 years! (you are making us look bad with your change of plans)

at first we try to reason with them. we exchange our knowledge, try to show them the end of the road. but they don't listen. then we ask them to share their opinions. but they refuse. they say it will only make things difficult. so we sigh, and ask to continue our journey. but they stand fast. they start to attack us.

now we are covering by the side of our rocky, winding, dangerous road. trying to figure out what to do.

and we ask ourselves. why can't they see?

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Sunday, August 10, 2008 @8:38 PM

Are you watching the Olympics?

Ju Vern is watching badminton! swimming, diving, gymnastics, cycling, weightlifting, basketball and anything else that appears on the television screen. =)

I love the spirit of the Olympics - the idea of reaching for the best man can be. I love the togetherness - how a nation can unite behind one man. Emotion at its purest and loudest can be found in sporting stadiums. The world in a heartbeat.

The best one can be. Go and amaze us.

I am very much supporting

Lee Chong Wei! <3 (badminton)
Wong Mew Choo! (badminton)
Choong Tan Fook-Lee Wan Wah (badminton)
Koo Kien Kiet-Tan Boon Heong (badminton)
Josiah Ng (cycling)
Azizul Hasni Awang (cycling)
Bryan Nickson (diving)
Daniel Bego (swimming)
Che Chew Chan (taekwondo)
Elaine Teo (taekwondo)
and the rest of the Malaysians.

Malaysia wants an Olympic gold medal!

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Saturday, August 9, 2008 @1:02 AM

searching for the meaning of life

The aim of life is self-development.
To realize one's nature perfectly - that is what each of us is here for.
- Oscar Wilde

picture credit: www.abeautifulrevolution.com


Friday, August 8, 2008 @1:48 AM

I never used to believe that writing showcases who you are. I always reasoned that if you are writing, then you can control your words, and say only what you want other people to hear.

That is, until I wrote an essay entitled 'Fear'. As an examination question, it intrigued me. And so I did what I always do: create a character, craft a situation, and let both go where they will. My stories usually go in directions I never planned for. At the end of the essay, I reread it and there it was - staring at me in the face, black words on white paper - my fear. Fear I have never acknowledged, let alone expressed; it was there, in the voice of my character.

Now I have come to realise that every piece of writing reveals your principles, your personality, your beliefs and what you stand for. Every piece of writing articulates a little of how the million neurones in your head are firing. Every piece of writing helps you understand more of what your heart is saying.

I have never been an honest person. But now writing is stripping away my compulsive ability to lie to myself. What's underneath is raw and imperfect but it is real.


Wednesday, August 6, 2008 @6:49 PM

one day
we will slip


and find ourselves again
in a world without fear
or thoughts of the future


Tuesday, August 5, 2008 @12:42 AM

It's about one in the morning, and I just washed my hair. Oh well. At least the world is not making much sense either. Did you read about the cannibal on the Canadian bus? The world is not making any sense.

But let me tell you about this out-of-the-blue moment of fun we had yesterday. =) In this world where an outing means shopping malls, cinemas and fast food - it was this unplanned, spontaneous outing in a park which will remain in my memory.

The TDRA had a meeting slash event happening yesterday, where they invited the police chief OCPD person to talk about security. The police cadets were invited to march. Haha the OCPD said that they were better than his men! Ooh I was very impressed with the OCPD - he speaks good English! Yay!

I baked peanut butter cupcakes with chocolate frosting. =D They were supposed to be for the cadets and I felt very bad because one of the guards asked for one. Haha he was like 'how come I don't get? I have a uniform too!'

Kum Foeng, Bernard, Sylvester and birthday girl Hoe Yan showed up. I brought a guitar to bully Chee Soon into teaching me. So after they were done marching, we wandered down to the badminton courts where we made Chee Soon perform! Haha the guys sang!

I terlalu love this photo. Even if Yoong Chieh, Hoe Yan and I aren't in it.

So we played with the guitar, played badminton, and sang the evening away. It's amazing how utterly relaxed and free and unconscious of the surroundings we were. We were rather loud haha. We must have sung Ai Hen Jian Dan a dozen times, with its distinctive chorus of I Loveeee You... it was so much fun. There were, as there always are, the random moments that make up an evening - someone, not sure who, shouted 'I love you too!' from the middle of a badminton game; someone yelled 'Wah, YC proposing!' also from the middle of a badminton game, people dedicating wins in the badminton court to the birthday girl...

I love the spontaneity. The music. The open air. The group of friends just hanging out. We need these kind of moments in this world.

(Haha Hoe Yan told me that she heard one of the guards humming I loveee you - our song - on the way out! Must have heard us one too many times.)

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Saturday, August 2, 2008 @11:38 PM

I envy

People who can light up a room
just by walking into it

Light it up with

Wit, humour, an infectious laugh
Beauty, sincerity, a perfect smile
Talent, presence, pure undeniable joy


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