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Day 3

Math

Haha the invigilators are funny! I think the good thing about being in a class room is that we get to know the teachers better and they are just ordinary teachers who deal with students every day.

I have gotten used to feeling isolated because everyone is so far away from my table! I hate not being able to see other people because I get boreddd. Usually I can see everyone from my vantage point. sigh.

Functioning at this high intensity for SPM is tiring. and stressful. And it's not even that intense yet! I still draw DNA and trace hearts and chat with teachers! But it will get worse as the sciences and the chinese and the english lit come along and I dreaddd.

Chinese. =( I resolve to work harder at this subject. There is after all, one shot at it and that's it. I don't want to receive what I expect in March and whine about the system when I haven't tried hard enough. Because no matter what Yee Wei and optimistic chinese teachers say, it would be a disgrace to the exam marking system if I got A1 over other more deserving people out there. But I will try.

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Day 4

Add Math & Moral

I am

1. insecure about my handwriting.
2. happy that I was not forced to write anything complimentary about ISA.
3. secretly in love with add math beyond all other subjects.
4. strangely experiencing insomnia.
5. OMG about yee wei's writing.
6. scared about chinese in general.
7. wondering if taking english literature will be worth it.
8. sad that I cannot draw.
9. suddenly amused about the crane I spotted just now.
10. jealous of jason's handwriting.
11. eating grapes.
12. procrastinating. sigh.

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Day 5

Chemistry

BM cikgu came over to declare my chinese essay a surat cinta. Chemistry cikgu came over to conclude that chinese is susah sangat. Haha.

I wonder what they would do if I brought in a Rubik's cube? =/

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Day 6 & 7

Biology & Physics

I heart Physics but I found it the hardest of the lot. Probably due to the lack of sleep. I spent half the night reading Twilight. Sigh you see this is why I have self-discipline problems. My only lasting impression of Biology was that it was like Sejarah - only that tiny bit of the very thick Explorasi book came out. Damn not worth it.

Let me tell you why I hate - okay really dislike - Chemistry. It requires suspension of disbelief. It requires me to accept without question that copper(II) ions are blue and carbonate salts when heated release carbon dioxide. It doesn't tell me why. And that is my problem with chemistry. It's like asking why the sky is blue and why your name is ethan.

I like Physics though. It explains things. I am indifferent to Biology. I find it mind-numbingly boring.

But come to think of it not having to know why is my problem with the whole malaysian education system. Two chinese words which say everything : 虚伪

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Day 8

Chinese & Literature in English

I know Jason seems to have this misguided belief that Chinese will come and murder us in our collective sleep but I am truly satisfied with the effort I have put in and whatever comes next March, I know I would not have done much differently. Which means: It's not my fault. Yay.

Yes, I took Literature in English. But even during the first half of the day when my wonderful friends were laughing at me for doing the extra subject, I had no regrets. I may not have enjoyed every second of it; may not even have liked the novel, but hey - now I have vague ideas of what made Shakespeare great; how poetry has millions of surfaces; how short stories actually say something beyond the happy endings.

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Day 9

English in Science and Technology

EST does not count. We hung around chatting, listening to a briefing on Melacca and went to watch James Bond.

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Day 10

Accounts

Lastdaylastdaylastday!

It was actually quite difficult, the paper. Whatever. SPM TAMAT!