Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @11:40 PM
To everyone who wanted to know why ju vern was not happy: it was a really crappy day. Now it is almost midnight, and I have covered enough distance to not feel like crying everytime I am expected to reply and explain and discuss.
Thank you for the hugs and the cheer-ups and the jangan sedihs, guys, and birthday boy - I am very sorry if I had you worried there. Here's a secret: I was rather upset when I sent out that birthday message, regardless of whatever that smiley represents. Here's something you won't know till tomorrow: I baked brownies (for you!), which was a welcome distraction from doom and gloom.
I honestly haven't felt so torn up over real life in a long while. I think it was the holding back for half the day; the need to put on a brave face and say 'I can handle this'. I can. It's all about perspective. But it doesn't stop it from hurting, does it?
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